Serenexstarstruck

So it's been a good two years since I've been on I think.... LOL
Possibly going to be active. Planning on posting my manga I've been working on here.
Title will be out soon, character designs will be up as well.
Unedited, and not photoshopped.

Going to be a hectic three weeks.
With all the shit that went down this week, I pretty much realized how much I need to wake up.
Senior week, Boards week then prom.

Broke up with my boyfriend (neutral decision), shit happens not going to let it get to me.
He's ok though. Unexpected shit is unexpected and talked to someone about the incident and don't feel safe anymore LOL.
And I'm over it. Life is too short, just get the fuck back up and get the fuck over it.
Sure I'll miss him, and I still have those feelings but what can you do when someone doesn't feel the same about you xD.
People lose feelings over time, not going to stop my life just over one person.
There is so much more out there for me, leaving my worries behind and maybe going somewhere new. <3

So getting my car fixed this weekend :3
My boyfriend and I finally saved enough money so that means....
JOB HUNTING!

Also I've been planning ahead for Metrocon. Working on my cosplay :33
My boyfriend and I are going to cosplay together as characters from Mirai Nikki (Future Diary)
Working on all my stuff now and his is pretty simple. He is cosplaying as Masumi Nishijima.
I on the other hand is going to be the 9th diary holder Minene Uryuu~
Already ordered the wig so the next step for me I guess is to start working on the ourfit and eyepatch

Uber excited!

Gotta love people -____-
Well..... Megacon and Metrocon plans.

Hope my car is fixed by then.

Inspiration is running dry....
Can't draw without getting mad at myself.
Art isn't bringing me happiness like It used to...

You honestly have nothing to say?
You're not making any of this better.
I want more from you.
Something that tells me you are actually trying.
I can't deal with this anymore...

You love me?
Then show me.

I'm fed up with the same meaningless words.
"I'm here for you."

Then where are you when I truly need you.
All I do is think why...

Why me?
Why does it seem like I'm never good enough?
Why do you leave me alone when I really needed you the most?
Why does it feel like I'm the only one trying?
Why don't you try harder for my sake?
Why do I constantly have to convince myself?
Why do I feel like we aren't going to last?
Why do I feel hopeless?
Why can't I just bring myself to end it knowing you can easily be taken from me?


I want you to prove me wrong.... I've been giving you too many chances...
I'm about ready to give up.... on everything